I would get a divorce from her & move back to Germany with your children.

If you still somehow have this account can you give an update? I’m currently in the same situation and I’m concerned it will never end

My first threat came less than a week after the wedding

As someone whose husband threatens divorce in the majority of arguments (the first time being less than a week after the wedding), I can say that I went from a confident, happy person to someone that is full of self loathing, I feel like rubbish that will be eventually thrown away and like my “soul mate” will throw me under the bus at any moment.
It’s completely destroyed me. I now self harm and have suicidal thoughts.

So no, it’s not complete shit and it’s not normal to constantly threaten your spouse with divorce.

I’m curious about your post. If it’s truly mental illness, doesn’t it fall under the wedding vow in sickness and in health? I’m also a Christian and dealing with severe emotional instability, some kind of personality disorder with my spouse. It seems to be deteriorating as the years roll by. I’m sure he won’t consider therapy

My husband reads his Bible, can quote scripture and play this nice kind and gentle soul around church and family.
He will get angry at me over the silliest things then threaten divorce.
The other night, 30 mins after Couples Bible study he called me F’ B and f’in everything else while he held a huge knife and destroyed a watermelon!!
He was psychotic!
He has actually filed in me 3 times and has had me served at my job.
I am exhausted and almost to the point I’m going to call his bluff.
A true Christian does not act and treat his wife like he does.
He’s NOT the person he portrays.

Wow, I wondered if others felt the same. My husband has a way with his words and when he is angry NOTHING matters. He says some of the ugliest things and for the most part none of them are truths. I think he does it trying to manipulate my emotions. The sad part is, he gets angry about thoughts that he has and believes yet NONE of them are true. He creates insecure stories and make them be all about me???? When people see us as a couple they say yall been together forever and such a good couple and the whole time, I am mentally tired and deeply upset with what I am getting from my husband during his what I call “pyschotic episodes”. We have two girls and I hate that they see this often. He is either really in love with his family or extremely thinks we are out to hurt him, lie to him, make him look bad, and just don’t want the best for him???? All this is nonsense, and I am to the point when he says he wants a divorce, I am contemplating acting on it. I have been coping with this situation for over 20 yrs and it has gotten the best of my emotions!!!! I have prepared papers a couple of months ago he said he would sign them yet he ripped them up and stated he was just upset he don’t want a divorce and he needs his family. Now, 2 mos later, we are back to the same psychotic episodes, silent treatment, ugly talking, disrespect, and fault blaming. I am so at a lost for words and tired of feeling this way!!!!

You can leave him. He is not worth a second more.